The good, the bad, and the ugly of our little miracle!

Well our baby girl will be here before we know it, the countdown is on. For those of you that don't know I thought I would share a little bit about how we got here...

Derek and I had actually been trying to have a baby because I have a couple issues, the first being a uterine septum (my uterus is divided by a wall so there are 2 chambers) as well as a couple other issues. I was told a few years ago that it would be very hard or impossible for me to ever get pregnant. I was honest with Derek from day one in our relationship knowing he wanted a family, and of course he was wonderful saying we always had other options. So anyway we started trying early because we knew it might take time especially if we had to take other routes.

Well after a few months of trying and nothing happening we found out my body had quit ovulating...great. So the doctor had to try me on a few different medicines to try and make my body do what it should naturally. After a few months the medicine started working and so I had to start keeping a calendar (Derek teases me about the calendar still because I lived by this thing lol). Each month that went by was hard because I would get my hopes up a little each time just to be heartbroken when I wasn't pregnant.

Let me take a minute and say anyone that knows me, knows I have always been the "mothering" type. Just ask my little brother and nieces and nephew lol. I have always wanted to be a mother and I knew one day God would bless me with a wonderful man and our own little amazing family.

Well in early February I was "late," I had to go out of town for a conference and Derek and I decided I would wait until I got back home to take a test. Well first thing monday morning before going to work I took the test....and I saw 2 very faint lines. 

I was scared to death. I know this is what we had been hoping and praying for but I was scared to get my hopes up. The lines were so faint I didn't believe it was true, so I decided to call the doctor. They had me come in to the office to do an in office test and also some blood work. Before I left the office they said yep your pregnant  I was over joyed. We wanted to keep it a secret so we didn't even tell our parents. The next day I got a phone call at work from the doctor saying my levels (hcg and progesterone) were very low and they didn't think it was going to be a viable pregnancy. I was completely devastated. They said I had to keep going back every 3 days for more blood until "it passed" because I am o negative and would need a shot. Of course I fell apart in my office (luckily it was between classes) called Derek and then broke down and called my mom. I needed her! After she was finally able to understand me through the tears she was so great and supportive and prayed with me and said it was in God's hands and to give it to him, worrying would only make things worse. I pulled my self together but was a total wreak for the next few days. 3 days later I went back for more blood work and the next day took 18 teenagers to Atlanta on a field trip by myself. While at the expo I got a call from the doctor saying your levels are actually going up. I think she was a shocked as I was. But she told me we needed to be cautiously optimistic. More blood work every 3 days. At what would be 6 weeks they did an ultrasound and we saw nothing again I was devastated. They thought at this point it was a blighted ovum. They had me come back a week later for another ultrasound. I was so nervous the whole week I was just sick. As soon as she got it going I could hear a change in her voice "now what do we have here" we saw our little nugget and heard a strong heartbeat. Derek told the nurse that we were very worried they wouldn't see anything and she said they were too. Finally we could be excited. 

Our first pic!

Found online...fits perfectly!

Now we are almost 34 weeks along and our precious little miracle will be blessing us with her presence very soon. All tests have shown she is healthy and has a strong heart. I have felt pretty great the whole pregnancy and been lucky to have only gained 8 lbs up to this point. (Of course I feel like I'm a huge whale.)

At this point we still do face a couple challenges, because of the uterin septum we have the risk of her staying breech and pre-term labor. In english... she doesn't have a ton of space in her side of my uterus so when she runs out of room she is coming and we can't stop her.  According to the doctor as long as she makes it to 34 weeks we are out of the woods with any big issues.

So now we just wait for our baby girl and pray delivery goes well.

I do want to thank my family and friends for their prayers and support during this roller coaster. Derek has been amazing through it all and I know she is going to have him wrapped around her little finger.

I just LOVE this!